When the Lord reveals himself to you in a special way, it changes you completely from who you used to be.  In 1989, I was an executive with a major flooring contractor in the New York City area.  Then Rodney Howard-Browne came to the church that we were attending in Toms River, NJ.  He walked into the service and the fire of God hit me immediately and changed my life. He asked me why am I laughing and crying.  I said I don't know.  He then preceeded to say that is the fire of God.  It hurt and burned me for many months.  I could hardly function and it consumed me completely.  My wife and I walked away from the business world and started to serve the Lord. We walked away from everything that we had and went to Rhema.  God showed us that this was the anointing of the Word and the Spirit that was put on us.  The reason I am writing this is because this past March, I went to a conference that Rodney had at ORU, this is the same place that he layed hand on my wife and I and ordained us in front of all our friends.  As soon as I walked in the fire of God started to consume me again like it did in 1989.  It burned and burned within me and took control of me and changed me even deeper than before.  He showed that we should never let go of the beginning and always stay with His fire and walk with His fire.  That most people will never understand the true consuming fire of his love.  It is a life-changing fire and all you want is to do His will.  It is true revival of your heart, a heart that is always trying to remain pure for Him.  I don't know why I just wrote this, but it was put on my heart, so I know that someone will read this and they will understand what has just happened to them.