View From the Balcony - Writers Block

View From the Balcony

Writers Block

2006-03-04

I'm dying ... thoughts

I'm dying ...

Thought ...

Life issues spin a web of good things or a web of settling for less than we want. It all depends on your thought process.. Nothing remains the same, from first light to dark and back again, all things are in a constant change of flux.

When we got up this morning, we had an idea of how we wanted our life to be, how the day would go, and the plans for what we needed to get done, were foremost in our minds. Our thoughts became the emotion and essence of action to change the results that becomes our reality.

I didn't get up expecting much of anything for the next few days. This last TIA [Transient Ischemic Attack] had left me with a speech problem and a bit of Bells Palsy on the one side of my face. I was admitted to the hospital for a short stay for observation.

The Bells Palsy hung around longer than expected, but it did go away. The speech problem was a totally different ball game. Aphasia is a common occurence in people who suffer any form of stroke. I was to learn I was no exception.

The lesson of thought.

I thought I finished the answer to your question. I thought I told you the whole statement my brain had sent to my mouth to speak to you. Why are you standing there saying nothing? Whatever are you waiting for? It did no good to repeat the statement. It never completed itself anymore than the first time uttered.

How frustrating, how embarassing and totally overwhelming it is to have to learn to speak all over again. To think the thoughts again and again - even though the brain formed them perfectly - to speak slowly and take the time to enunciate every syllable until the message completed itself in voice.

How terrifying to forget what you just thought about - to have your instant recall memory gone in a flash. Slowly, long term memory comes to the fore but not without hearing the same story over and over again from each person in your life.

You become adept at non linear thinking because it is the only way you can work again. The only way to show you are coming back on center with who you really are. Change becomes something you can finally relate to, something that will forever play an important role in your tomorrows.

You learn something else that is extremely important from your thought processes. You are a survivor.

Fran Klasinski
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TAGS: change,Thought,speech problem,stroke,TIA,Bells Palsy,Aphasia

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